Simplify.

 There is this. 

 And this.

And this. 

I've gotten myself all worked up with a thousand projects going on, and I'm way up high in the air in a tizzy. I have six weeks till surgery, four weeks till school, and I am determined to ground myself, and ground myself deeply, in that time. 

No alcohol. Little sugar. Little meat. Early to bed, every night. Moderate exercise. Less time on the computer. Physical therapy. Meditation. Time outside, and in my garden, and soaking up these dog days of summer. Yoga. 

I have had some lovely, basic workouts these past few days, some basic swims, some basic cardio, etc. My diet has had too many gluten substitutes sneak into it this week and its left me feeling sluggish in mind and body. Its been very social of late, and I'm finding a direct correlation between drinking alcohol the night before and feeling anxiety the morning after. I'm cutting it out for 6 weeks. I'm slowing down. If I don't state it here I won't stick to it, so here it is. I've been craving sugar, and I've been craving bread lately, and to me that is a sign that something is out of balance.

Slow. Down.

These are my last weeks with my kids as non school agers, and I will be DAMNED if I am going to miss a minute of it struggling with anxiety or feeling less than my best self. I know that my personal path to wellness is paved with less commitments, a whole, slow, and intentional diet, and none of the factors which create anxiety in me (lots of alcohol, late nights, or taking on too much socially). I say no to all of it for the next weeks, for my own sake and for my kids sake. I will go into this school year, and this surgery as my best self, because I owe it to all of us to do so. 

Bombs away.